As the end of semester nears for me and I have but a few days left with all my friends, I have but one thought. Well... a few thoughts. But one that bogs down my mind on a daily basis: I will miss my friends. I will miss them. I'll miss their smiles and their welcoming arms, their talk of classes and even the ever so annoying singing after coming back from dinner every night, even though we all know we love it to death. Why, some may ask, am I saying these things?
Well, it is because I am not returning to my school in the spring semester.
See, my school I go to is one very very VERY expensive school. It is going to put me in debt for a long time... And it is not by an unthought choice that I had to leave. It is because I need to take a time off to better myself. To see if going to college is even what I am supposed to be doing. Right now, I don't believe that it is.
I believe with every open door, there is an opportunity. An opportunity to do something great with your life, whether it be something small, or something very large. And I also believe that with every closed door, is another opportunity to find another way to live, because something may have gone wrong the first time through.
God has something great in store for me. I know it. I can tell. But I need to find what he has in store for me, because I know that if I just sit back and try to let things flow my way, it will get me no where.
These next few months are going to be some of the hardest ones I can imagine. Not only because I will be forced into the real working world, but also because I will be faced with hardships with reality, relationships, and knowing that I will have to face my family with the looming thought that maybe, just maybe, college isn't for me and that I am not wasting my life.
I am doing the best that I can. I am doing what I feel is best for me, and whether they like it or not, it is my body, my mind, and my life that I am dealing with at the end of the day.
I just hope beyond hope my family will understand, and support me.
Don't sit around and let life waste away.
Do something with it.
Fall in love.
Get a job.
Do something great.
With much love,
RR
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